Perfect

The feeling of contentment is a peaceful one. I can say that the feeling is like the calm serenity of the sounds of flowing water in nature. You just want to say, "Ahhhhh.." and close your eyes and bask in the warmth of the sun against your skin as you just enjoy the moments that pass. The smell of the fresh green grass and flowers intoxicating. The sound of the birds singing and the bees buzzing, each living thing completing its life cycle, music to the ears. This is where people should dwell often.

MMMMM

I found what I was looking for in your kiss and your smile. You took my hand and stole my heart on the dance floor. Kept me warm with your touch. Your hands on my body I felt the Earth move below. And your soft lips taste so sweet against mine. Running my fingers through your black hair our eyes meet, and time stops for just a second. I'm too afraid to breathe. I can't help come back for more. I get lost in your dark eyes and your chisled face. I don't want this night to end, so I come back to this moment over and over again in my mind's eye.

Proven and tested

Okay now why is it that when I go out I usually dress pretty casual. Ya know the jeans and t-shirt, nothing ever really happens, no one talks to me or notices me. But on the weekend I decided hey, I'm gonna slut it up cause fuck it I feel like it. So i put on a little teeny weeny black dress and some black high heels. And guess what? I met a very amazing straping young boy and got his number. Hmmmmm what's up with that? I guess I should be dressing more like a girl these days. Since well I have cut off my weave, so I proabably look like a little boy in my usual getup. Ode to womanhood. From this day forth I shall thank my lucky stars that I went to that godforsaken club J lounge which I usually loathe and met someone. Hahaha. My good friend Jojo said that you usually rate a place by how much action you get there. All I gotta say is I use to hate J lounge now I fuckin' love that place. Holler!!! Buahahah!!!

HALLEUJAH!

I googled Halleujah and got repeated images of Preacher Charles Templeton. Hahahha! I am posing like this right now.

Jesus .... I was just reading some of my past blogs when I was suffering from severe depression and I just want to say .... I have come along fuckin' way people!!!!!! WHOOOHOOOOO!!! I had a most awesome day. I woke up early took a nice walk in the warm sun and brisk winter air. Did research for my grad school application. And had a yummy lunch with my cousin while watching my fave show "A Haunting."

I feel like celebrating life. Tonite, I will watch a movie with friends and thoroughly enjoy every second of it. I will not space out and worry about menial nonsense. Yet I will live exactly in each moment, of laughter, fun and good vibes. Praise Allah!

AHHH

Trapped in normalcy. When I am contained, I do not feel like myself. Yet with you I am taken away. You make me float above the ground. On another level. Taken over by the music swayed by its magic. I am in heaven.

Destiny

You make me want to feel again. Like I did when I was younger. Where we were fresh and new and all I could think of was you. And all you could think of was us. Sweetness through actions and words. Do you remember? Embedded in a mere memory, conjures up the feelings of a past life left alone. And the sadness that followed as a friendship ceased. Yet is destined to continue anew. Maybe when the time is right said the heavens above, yet we know not of what's to come of this. But I do know it that my mind is filled with thoughts of you, and I and maybe happiness together. I feel naive, yet I want to just run with it. With every sound a melody carries me into a cloud of hope floating away to a place others only dream of. Yet something tells me I must try to keep my feet on the ground. For we two are only stars in the sky meeting again, bright, yet vulnerable awaiting our stellar destiny.

The hope inside

I sit hear listening to my thoughts, my fears and I wonder where I am going.
Sometimes it seems like a train to nowhere. A wild ride to nothingville. Yet here I stay still. When will the time come. When I realize the one and only dream is nothing like what it seems. I can't seem to see what it is to be, free. Or does freedom come at a price, I must not think twice. I hold in these thoughts, fears and hopes because if I let them out they won't be mine anymore. They will be for the world to take away. And I will never be able to revel in them in fantasy. So I will hold on to them because they are mine and mine alone and that's how they will stay alive in my heart.

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